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Running on Empty-Jackson Browne

I think we all can recognize this song, just figured I'd throw it on here, as I came across it through facebook. I kind of feel like it emanates a sense of my state of mind.
     I had good conversation with a fellow intern here at the farm last night that revolves around the themes of this song. We talked about traveling through life and not necessarily knowing what we are doing or where we are going. There was an importance placed on how we feel about where we are and our state of mind. She told me how her mom, though she was not excited about her now 32 year old daughter's exploration early in life, told my friend Sadie how proud she is of her now, because she is her happiest child. Her other children are conventional human beings with families and day jobs, but Sadie is a free spirit as some would say. She has roamed around much of the world with nothing but a backpack, and her gracious, friendly state of mind. She was telling me how she always would rather have done something and not had things work out than never do something because she was afraid to do them. I really vibed with this thought and feel the same about this trip. I have my fears of being on the road, at night, riding across the country, undoubtedly. Yet, I feel that if I never do this then I will almost regret it more. Despite the perils that I face, growing older deprived of satisfaction I gain from experiences like this will serverely disturb me down the road. Thus, I believe I have opened the door to becoming content with my life. Now, I do not want to impose the idea that we all must go on epic journeys like I think is right for me, of course, that is not the case. Rather, I think we all have epic journeys, but they manifest quite differently whether they be raising children, rising on the corporate ladder, or growing spiritually.
     I hope we all challenge ourselves and not settle for a life of drudgery and repetition. There are many routes to success and personal fulfillment, they lurk over our shoulders everywhere, but occasionally have to break the mold to expose them to ourselves. If your not being fulfilled in life, then experiment with the new. Many of us just take it. Day in and day out, the draining, dilapidating effects of never feeling gratification paralyze man. Don't do that, life is too short, and the rewards of stepping outside one's comfort zone are unimaginable.
     The days on the farm have become rather repetitive, with a few quirks here and there. Today was market day, a beautiful day, with a chilly morning. I heard its been catatonically cold in the North this past week. For you all, I'm sympathetic...and glad I am down here. I thought this morning was freezing at 38 degrees, but I suppose thats nothing to complain about. We made it to the market about seven. It was the same market I went to last Sunday, though, it was not nearly as busy and I was fortunate to get out of there at about 3 this time.
     I wish there was more to tell you all, but I can't say that there is. I hope your all staying warm up there.
Peace,
Tommy